Monday, December 31, 2012

a snowy dog...

on sunday morning we went snowshoeing with maeve and hobbes.  we had a blast.  o made this video of hobbes loving the snow.  when i watch it i can't help but smile...and get a little teary...this is one happy dog with one great life!


Sunday, December 30, 2012

at seven weeks...

i was determined to write this post before maeve turns 8 (!!!) weeks old...and i did it.  this week has been one of major changes for miss maeve.  her neck is strong and she is constantly looking around.  she is cooing and talking up a storm.  she's focusing on objects, she knows our voices, and she is smiling all the time.  in the past week we've...
visited with family and friends...and celebrated christmas.  we've been working on tummy time...
 we went to flatbread (and scored the couches) during a snowstorm...
 and started regrowing some of the hair we lost.  and look at those big blue eyes...
for me this week has been filled with disbelief at the changes in this sweet girl, lots of feeding, happiness to the point of tears, and some sad tears as i adjust to motherhood.

as i write this o is holding maeve and she's latched on to his nose.  he's laughing like i've never heard him laugh and she's sucking away.  it's feeding time.  my motherly duties call.  got to go!

Friday, December 21, 2012

today...

today marks the day when the nights get a little shorter and the days begin to get longer...minute by minute for the next six month.  phew.  i've loved the coziness of the past month, but we are ready to look out the window and see a bit more daylight.  we celebrated the light by sleeping in, having tea with our friend emma, and watching a documentary.  oh it is so rainy and windy here today...it's been nice to stay local.  o starts at ten day vacation this evening, which feels like a great way to celebrate the solstice!

it's odd to imagine where we'll be six months from now when the days start retreating back.  june 21st.  i would love to think we are taking long walks as a family with hobbes and maeve...chatting about our life as parents and our life as a family.  i hope that o and i are standing firmly and confidently in our parent boots.  i hope that maeve is happy and healthy.  i hope we end the night nestled in the book nook, reading and reading.

photo by christina wnek

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

lots of...


lately there has been lots of dog poking his head through out legs time. and walks in the woods...
and sniffing...
and adorable outfits...
what has there been lots of for you lately?

ladies and babies...

this photo is a bit hard to see, but i love it just the same.  on my mom's 60th birthday on sunday, my dad did a fireworks display.  the ladies with babies got front row seats in a warm and quiet truck.  o took this photo of me, maeve, lila, nell, and caroline from outside the truck...look at us just loving life and the purple boomers.

Monday, December 17, 2012

six weeks...

maeve turned six weeks old today.  we celebrated with a little snowstorm, the paul simon station on pandora, and lots of [fake] smiles...followed by spit up.

today this sweet baby wanted to be held a lot, which i ate up.  we spent lots of time in bed, in the rocking chair, and in the baby bjorn.  we ventured out for my six week check-up, but i could have stayed in the house all day.  hobbes was a little under the weather today, so we had a fuzzy companion close by.

my favorite part of today was when we were bopping around in the living room listening to music.  when the song don't worry, be happy by bobby mcferrin came on i couldn't help but smile...and then cry.  i cried because this little girl puts it all in perspective.  she makes my world right.  she somehow makes me make sense.  without being able to speak a word, she teaches me how these days are best spent...bundled and cozy, together at home, living in the moment, thinking about what matters, with a dog close by, and with constant reminders that in this world we depend so much on others.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

kindness...

in the past five weeks we've been showered with kindness...in a way i never imagined.

we get sweet emails and texts.  there are weekly visits from grandparents.  christina has come over to take beautiful pictures of sweet maeve many times.  the mailman delivers love from near and far almost every day.  our next door neighbors knock on the door with fresh muffins, clementines, juice, cookies, and a need to get their maeve fix.  my coworkers and former coworkers have given us so many baby items and hand-me-downs.  friends have lent us lots of baby equipment.

maeve's arrival has shown and reminded us how much goodness and kindness exists.  we are so grateful.

photo by christina wnek

Monday, December 10, 2012

at five weeks...

at five weeks we are starting to find our rhythm...maybe.  we are learning maeve's language of cries, grunts, and noises...maybe.  we are getting peed, pooped, and spit up on less...maybe.

in this time of maybe, it seems i am living in the moment more than i ever have.  maeve reminds me that nothing is certain and predictable.  it is complete surrender, as we live from feeding to feeding.

emotions creep up and flood over me as this little one chirps sweet noises, as she gazes up at me when i feed her, as she stretches on her changing table in the middle of the night, as she arches her back when i pick her up from a nap (her little bum sticking out), and as her mouth moves back and forth in the air and her eyes get really big just before she latches on.

at five weeks maeve is changing and growing...and the same is happening for me and my heart.  i am changing and growing.    

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

phantom baby...

i grew maeve.  in doing that i carried her for 42 weeks.  now that she is here, she is in my arms feeding 8+ times a day for anywhere from ten minutes to hours at a time.  we spend our whole day together.  she sleeps next to me.  we are connected.

this is why when i go to bed before everyone else and o bring her in for a feeding i get very confused.  part of it is tiredness, but the bigger part is that i carry her with me in my being.  so when he gets ready to hand her to me, i can't figure it out.  in my mind she's with me, i'm already holding her...it's so strange.

i sit here this morning fresh spit-up on the front of my shirt, with the happiest tears in my eyes.  this girl...our girl.  it's amazing that someone so small can change things so much and have me thinking about the big things like i never have before.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

from the cracked door...

from the cracked door at night i love seeing the silhouette of maeve's face as she sleeps propped up next next to me in bed.  i love watching her little pacifier bobble back and forth.  i love seeing her arms fly up as she dreams, her little fingers backlit and spread open.  oh baby girl!

photo credit

Monday, December 3, 2012

lately...

we're getting into a groove with this little one, who has fully captured my heart.  she's four weeks old today.  we're spending the day celebrating the birthdays of many dear friends (we already made birthday videos), taking a walk, going to a pediatrician appointment, and seeing friends.

here's to december...and being adorable!
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